KEEPING FRIENDS

1) The best way to have a friend is to be a friend.

2)You must develop a great deal of ACCEPTANCE & PATIENCE. You must accept people and not try to change them to suit you.

GOOD FRIENDSHIP develops out of certain amount of UNCONDITIONAL POSITIVE REGARDS.

REAL FRIENDSHIP has to be something that clicks between people. It can't be forced & doesn't work if it is one-sided.

You need to spend time and energy selecting and developing friends from those who are interested rather than lamenting the fact that some people with whom you'd like to be friendly doesn't seem to be interested..

-an excerpt from a book

the odds!!

well, I really am going through lots of self confusion..

I think there's something wrong with me..

Am I the person I know these past few days???

maybe I am not just used to these kinds of things..

all the life that i have ever known is having fun.. I really find comfort with my friends.. They play a really big role in my overall existence.. I find peace when I'm with them,. motivating me to push through and do everything coz I know they believed in me..

and now,, suddenly I'm experiencing this.. I know this has a reason.. to make me stronger,. but damn it,, I still am human, I also run tired of troubling things that keeps on going on..

I don't know if there's something wrong with me ... All I know is that I never intentionally did things that could hurt anybody...

and it hurts ..a lot of things hurt .. a lot of thoughts hurt ...

and lot of people ... uhh..

all I know is I'm hurting..

ang mga tao nga naman!!

sala sa init sala sa lamig..

pag ginawa mu yun,.. kesyo dapat ganun ang ginawa,

kung yung isa naman ang ginawa mo,. mali pa din!!

kung wala kang sariling utak ang desisyon,,. masisiraan ka ng bait!!

realization!!

woooohh!!! at last the chaos was over!!


i remember myself last oct.

"hay ang buhay ko kakatamad. sobrang plain."

that's what i thought.. time passed by..

nov. na...

second semester!

until one by one.. all the emotional problems fall over that I don't know how to pull myself out of the dark.. I really was turned into something i am not.. I had a lot of probs with all the people closest people and I thought were true to me.


ang hirap pala talaga..


I really don't know how to keep it all inside me that bursting into tears is all I end up doing...

I came to a point that I don't know if there's something wrong with me..
.......... as if it's hard trusting me.



I guess it's just a test ...


well, I don't know.. I had been true ever since...


and I guess the saying " lahat ng sobra ay masama" is true!!

I had always given the real friendship I could always offer but I cannot receive what I ought to have.. oooohhh how sad


well the good thing about what happened is that

i'VE REALIZED WHO'S WORTHY OF KEEPING THAN ALL THE OTHERS

LUMALABAS TALAGA KUNG SINONG TOTOONG KAIBIGAN!! =)

Filled With Anxiety

I was hurting...
That I stupidly focused on the wrong things that make me sad
and forget 'bout the people who are always willing to offer good reminiscences

I felt betrayed...
That I've come to apoint if condemnation of all the peolpe that surrounds me
feeling that they would all gonna hurt me

I felt depressed...
That it was like carrying all the emotional grim thoughts on my own

I was quite numb...
That I don't know how to sort things out on people who have been so close to me
yet hurt me much deeply

I was confused
That I don't know if there's something wrong with me

I was searching...
That I want to look for myself on my own
away from all the people I've known

I was lost...
That I've forgotten to notice the best people
who chose to care 'bout me

Missing You

I miss you
...the way you used to call having plenty of senseless stories to tell

I miss you
.. the way you used to text me just to check me out if I had eaten already

I miss you
...the way you used to greet me time after time

I miss you
...the way you used to be the first to check me out in the morning and also the last one at night

I miss you
...the way you used to tell me your kiddie-like stuff and corny jokes that even makes me laugh

I miss you
...the way you used to call me "sis"

I miss you
...the way you used to ask me to sing for you

I miss you
...the way you used to wake me up in the morning just to let me hear my favorite song and talk nonstop knowing I'm still sleepy

I miss you
... the way you used to invite me to go out with you over and over and over again even though I had always turned it down

I miss you
... the way you used to tell me 'bout your past relationship and how you want to forget everything about it

I miss you
...the way you used to state your work grievances and seem to wait for my concurrence

I miss you
...the way you used to seem present at all times I need you even when your not

I miss you
...the way you used to console me whenever I'm on the verge of breaking down

I miss you
...the way you used to say sorry a thousand times just for a single mistake

I miss you
...the way you used to treat me diff'rently that I seem to be even better than what I think of myself

I miss the way I strive for more 'coz I know you believe in me that much


I miss the FRIEND I have in you...
I miss living my life the day I had been with you...
I'm missing you...

haay! it has been days of loneliness that even i can't figure why..

even i don't know what made me feel that way,,. that sensitive to things that i should't have paid attention.. waheheh!!

i wonder what chemical is running along inside of me that has made feel such stupid sensation..

i hate when i cry...

aww,, what's important now is i'm fine already!! woohoo